sometimes d present can b very cruel, asking a closed question like inviting having lunch or dinner together, a simple invitation, can be interpreted as something surprised, shocking, terkejut n another question is posted back "y so sudden?"
either a yes or no question can be dipersoalkan balik. an invitation without anything else can be dipersoalkan, dipertikaikan on my niat/intention, s if i ll put poison on d food or anything, i dunno.
so now, every1 cooked their lunch, i m waiting for kitchen to b empty, or else anything ll b dipertikaikan again.
ppl r very weird. sometimes, when my pot is not used n is borrowed by a housemate without permission, another housemate mempertikai, y u letting ur pot being used without ur permission, like no respect on me like tat. I m d owner of d pot, ikut suka sayalah. I x keluar bunyi, ppl around me keluar bunyi. I m not using d pot anyway, any1 is free to use, alto it is mine. Y i wanna cari pasal n ask ppl not to use my pot when i really not using tat time, n inhibit other from benefiting from it.
mayb tat's d weakness tat i possess s ppl claimed tat, oh u r too lenient, u forgive others too easily, tat's y ppl lack respect of u. i dunno, a moral virtue tat is tot by almost all religions in d world is now seem like a weakness. ur forgiveness is too easily given, tat's y it dont cost much, very cheap, CHEAP, n ppl tend to pijak on ur kepala.
ok, ppl pijak on my kepala, ppl dont respect me. tat's other ppl's fault/sin. y i should worry on it.
anyway, i ll still say thx for d comment. wat ppl say is correct in this realistic world, bt it will never make me goyah.
Almost all religions is intention-based. What u think or plan is far more important than d outcome. If u plan for goodness for all, d outcome will not deviate much, alto thing may go wrong, bt it will not deviate much.
Yes, I was borned with learning difficulty, being hyperactive, tat's y ppl keep asking, u stay d whole day at ur room, u dont study meh? I have d difficulty, since i m borned, got ppl care about it? That's y my hand shivel at times, where only true, sincere friend notice it.
Making no study progress make me really feel bad, demotivated.
At least God gives compensation on me, i m a relative good note-taker. At least my notes r being appreciated by quite some fans. I feel motivated back. I dont mind borrowing without any return or exchange. Sometimes, when exchanging of notes, ppl shoot me of having a empty notes, yes, i may lose concentration too, alto it is very low occurence, bt at times, d note-exchanger himself have also empty notes at times too, bt i nvr shoot back bcaz i know i m nowhere better. Thx for ppl who is willing to exchange note with me, regardless d one scold others or d one who sincerely help me. I m sry if in d end, d net is other giving to me, thank u, then ur merit of sharing ur net notes doesnt diminish ur word or knowledge on u, but berlimpah berkat u ll have.
I dont mind end up borrowing end up as exchange, i dont mind, kasi marah, maki hamun also ok la, very hurtful, bt........ Bt wat is worst is tat some ppl can have d privileges of borrowing stacks of stacks without question asked, no condition. i have to fulfill a whole lot of condition, n it is only applicable for me.
ppl say, ppl is afraid of this person, so no condition need to b fulfilled. feel paiseh to reject ma. okla, dont feel paiseh to reject me is alrite, i m happy in return, this means tat i m easily persuaded/easily negotiated, bcaz i understand every1 need their note.
i dont mind d condition already, s long s d conditions applicable for every1 borrowing d notes, bt it is only applicable to me. gaining of knowledge, or sharing, like wat d note-exchanger say, is possible for me, in conditions.
So, i have maki hamun phobia. I no longer dare to borrow notes out or have a long delay. it really stay in me. D pain who knows? God knows. D ppl who maki hamun other wont remember d maki hamun, bt only d victim will remember d exact word, d exact feeling for life.
I m asked not to read ppl's blog dy, in hope ppl's blog wont bcome my blog, bcaz all d berita will be about me, jz in a negative way. ppl say my reputation will drop, bcaz d reader only read d bias part of d story, by one person. But i m glad tat Bathonians knows d fact, n d most importantly, God knows d truth of any blog. Typing a lying blog is still a lie. Like Conan said, there is only one truth, only one.
Back to 想当年, I enjoy my Spain trip, but during d time, my happinees is due to my sleeping n dreaming of d UCSI times. 想当年 is really wrong. It is only 2 years ago things, it is not 30 years ago, tat i m having white hair n saying 想当年. But too bad tat ppl change too drastically. I wanna understand every1 bt i cant catch up. I do ask 2nd opinion to understand others, bt d 2nd opinion also dunno. in d end, others scold me for not understand them well enuff. Ppl keep demanding me to understand, i done my best, kena blame.
d complexity in bath is tat u give ur best, still kena maki hamun, ppl find ur small little minor thing n magnify it. Bt when others tat he dont dare to touch or dont dare to make anger on, d major thing is quickly forgiven. U r scolded not bcaz u dont take effort, bt bcz u have flaws as a human.
I keep dream n sleep where I m being treated equally, i can visit all guys room every1, room by room(alto being labelled too free). When have huge workload, I do a 2 min one by d door, at least, everyday. Can i do tat to my 7, Herbert housemate? Can i lie on d bed without scolded mengotorkan katil, jz like in UCSI? God knows.
I m envious of 66, West Ave, to have a living room, i know i sound stupid. But tat a good place to social instead of every1 staying in a big room. I dont feel d closeness of a 2nd family.
U may say i m anak manja,ya, so? I hope tat me n my 3 brothers can support each other, alto i know my support maybe useless to them.
Last year, at least i dare to call them big bro, 2nd bro, 3rd bro, now, not even berani.
I hope tat if there is any brothers who have any issue on me, can really speak out, wanna maki hamun anything tat dont like about me, i can open a 5 hours non-stop maki hamun session, to solve anything, to stop all sengketa lama, if tat can help my brother to forget about d past then 5 hours is a worth investment. I wanna offer this, bt in d end, ppl tend to tangguh problem in hope time will dilute, but it happens too slowly.
I m d person who will sit on meja bulat, meja rundingan. anything wrong then speak out. dont pendam2, dont sembunyi2.
I dare to sit n talk with some of my brothers bed n talk for hours, bt if i wanna do tat individually, i ll do tat to all, tat's my vision for 2011, hope God will listen to my prayer. Every1 bcome d adorable, cute friends tat i know.
I still rmb i can go to a friend room, opening his stationary drawer open close open close till he get annoyed n he cough a bit or say "Wheiiiii" bt in a friendly, smiley.
In ucsi, there is not much camera, bt d memory stays kukuh in my mind. I m proud to say tat all 3 brothers been to my Kangar b4, know my house situation, it is 2/3 stays in my house, n i nvr invite any1 else, not even my 2ndary friend to stay my old, rapuh house.
I sincerely hope my brother can cope well with his present condition, i dunno whether it get worsen or better, jz hope he get well, regardless with help of pharmacology onot, n there is not always one med to treat a condition, hope to help when it comes to CNS unit. Wat benefit do i get if any1 of my brothers is not feeling well? I myself is having cold n fever.hehe
Looking forward to a time where I can lie on any1's bed for 30 mins individually, everyday, to all my brother. 一个也不能少. Hope can open close open close a friend's stationary drawer, swearing to God, no intention of invading privacy, jz wanna annoy ppl around...haha
Pray hard. this is not stg new. haha
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
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I m not against ppl who wants to benefit himself, bt y in d world there is ppl who inflict pain, suffering, take advantage on other ppl for personal benefit? Is it a joy, hobby, fun to see other ppl's suffering?
promise
He say, watever I say is a promise(alto i dont start with "I promise u..."), so out of 10000 words, 1 word has weakness, i m considered a promise breaker. When he dont fulfill his words, it is not a promise, so it is perfectly fine, bcaz he dont start d sentence with "I promise u..." Being a promise breaker hater, he fulfill his promise all d time bcaz he never made one alto he break his word tat is not a promise.
Simply say is: every word tat i say is a promise but every word tat he say is not a promise. He is still a 100% perfect promise fulfiller, alto he breaks his word all d time. meaning, i m a 100& word fulfiller bcaz my word is automatically converted to promise, bt his word is jz a word, which can b break as he wish
let's get a good laugh on this....he makes me laugh too.
Simply say is: every word tat i say is a promise but every word tat he say is not a promise. He is still a 100% perfect promise fulfiller, alto he breaks his word all d time. meaning, i m a 100& word fulfiller bcaz my word is automatically converted to promise, bt his word is jz a word, which can b break as he wish
let's get a good laugh on this....he makes me laugh too.
Hate
i know some1 who hate/pantang ppl who break promise n dont reply other ppl's sms. But I wonder did d person will hate himself when break his promise n dont reply other ppl's sms. Or d hating is jz applicable to other ppl only n not applicable to himself?
success?
ya, every1 can achieve dream, bt jz dont harm others, step on other ppl jz to achieve success n do it for own self benefit
Hell
Ppl always say hell occurs when u did a lot of sin/dosa regularly n get d punishment accummulatively after u die, which many ppl tot it is a long way to go, bt ppl never realise, hell could b d next second, where God decide to take everything tat God already give u due to ungratefulness, greed n selfishness.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Heaven n Hell
I nvr dare to critic other bcaz i feel i may do similar mistake. when some1 make a mistake, he will criticise/scold d person doing big sin, berdosa besar, fraud, not keeping promise, etc, bt when he himself do similar mistake, various excuse like: i forgot, human is imperfect, human make mistake, short term memory,etc to forgive himself n hope others do. Bt y ppl forgive oneself so easily? w/o a SELF sense of guilty, n even worse a guilty/ fear to God?
i do c wisdom being given by God to d one being bullied. N i know about d definition of Heaven n Hell thru various religions. It is not necessary to wait till after death to wait for d reward n punishment. Wat i can say, God is powerful n God is fair, just n great!
jz commenting d nature of human thru life-experience tat suddenly cross my mind. This world is a fair game. Ppl tend to seek material richness, being poisoned by excessive selfishness n greed bt forget tat these things r temporary n God can take back everything tat one have
i do c wisdom being given by God to d one being bullied. N i know about d definition of Heaven n Hell thru various religions. It is not necessary to wait till after death to wait for d reward n punishment. Wat i can say, God is powerful n God is fair, just n great!
jz commenting d nature of human thru life-experience tat suddenly cross my mind. This world is a fair game. Ppl tend to seek material richness, being poisoned by excessive selfishness n greed bt forget tat these things r temporary n God can take back everything tat one have
Heaven n Hell
I nvr dare to critic other bcaz i feel i may do similar mistake. when some1 make a mistake, he will criticise/scold d person doing big sin, berdosa besar, fraud, not keeping promise, etc, bt when he himself do similar mistake, various excuse like: i forgot, human is imperfect, human make mistake, short term memory,etc to forgive himself n hope others do. Bt y ppl forgive oneself so easily? w/o a SELF sense of guilty, n even worse a guilty/ fear to God?
i do c wisdom being given by God to d one being bullied. N i know about d definition of Heaven n Hell thru various religions. It is not necessary to wait till after death to wait for d reward n punishment. Wat i can say, God is powerful n God is fair, just n great!
i do c wisdom being given by God to d one being bullied. N i know about d definition of Heaven n Hell thru various religions. It is not necessary to wait till after death to wait for d reward n punishment. Wat i can say, God is powerful n God is fair, just n great!
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