believe

He no longer wanna speak with me. I dunno wat went wrong. Even not s friend, at least as a jiran.

Really cant conc on my studies nowadays.

Indeed, I do realise my own mistakes, my own dosa after locking myself in d room. I really hope to tebus, if only there is opportunity. I cant do much, i ll do watever wat I can. It is all about 2 way thing. i cant just tepuk sebelah tangan.

anyway, if this is the test, i ll take it. I believe tat if i m sincere enuff, no kepentingan peribadi, n if god knows i deserve it, maybe a good friend whom I know for 3 years, a friend who helped me a lot in my a level time, a smile tat I will never forget, suka n duka. Of coz, life goes on for him, w/o me, but is it a waste to have such a long struggle to end tat way? I feel wasted.

One lesson i learn: I do admit tat human tend to remember d bad thing tat happen to them n forget d good side of ppl. at least thru my locking myself in d room, i start to c a good point of ppl.... no1 is borned a devil n no1 deserved to b dipandang hina jz bcaz of some of his condition.

I know i go against d majority, to defend a minority, to stand with wat i believe. it makes me rugi, i know. bcaz i dont think i gain loss from both sides in d end, bt thx for a friend who convince me of ULTIMATE FAIRNESS. i do regret not being a pak turut, a "yes sir", maybe i wont suffer like this, but i know i defended a minority, which no1 cares much. Alto not being appreciated in d end(I do it not to get appreciation anyway, if i want to get appreciation, y i cant do it in front of ppl who award d appreciation in 1st place?), if time goez back again, i ll definitely do d same, bcaz i know i do d right thing.

wateve future holds, being ignored further, he ll still be my friend, regardless wat others say.

Happy Chinese New Year

Wish u Ang Ang Huat Huat this new year. Happy Chinese New Year

1st anniversary of Mancunian Appreciation Day(MAD)

有朋自远方来，不亦乐乎？

I m glad a Cardiffian visit Man too. Appreciate d hospitality of UCSI friends(not jz Mancunian, bt Cardiffian n Londoner n etc) when Bathonians crash their place. Plz crash our place n glad tat v will b meeting mancunians n londoners soon.

It was 1 February 2010 when Bathonians leave Manchester, so just ponder on how much i owe all wonderful ppl in this world tat make my life colourful

live in harmony, i tot is very easy, but i m wrong

couldnt believe one can hate a person for a long time, alto d person keep approaching, anything dendam lama say out loud, bt end up........not tired meh? N to create harmony needs 2 parties, a party initiate n another party jz dont bother is useless, regardless how much effort one party gives.

game over?

I am a simple person with simple need. Live harmoneous, tat's all. I do admit lots of improvement, but a slight change in a "Timing syarat" which is rejected can change everything. I make too much demand? With same momentum i tot it is of right track for kebaikan bersama bt i m expecting kucing bertanduk? To b fair, I m ready to fulfill any syarat too.regardless of wat happen tomorrow, hidup hanya sementara, entah esok lusa, i ll never forget to say thank u for d improvement, sincerely, swearly.

In d end, i m being judged from a 2 hour interview performance instead of wat i tolerate, compromise things tat contributely silently without even a single rungutan, menunjuk2(not even d intention). God knows bt wat is d use now?

All d predictions tat i will face a lot of problems including being kicked out in my academic life is getting closer n closer.

Tuhan, batalkan niat yg bersifat kepentingan peribadi

Jika apa yang saya lakukan ialah demi kepentingan peribadi/individu, Tuhan, tolong batalkan segala usahaku dan berharap bahawa ianya menemui kegagalan.

kebaikan sejagat

Demi Tuhan, if my intention is telus, ikhlas, sincere n for kebaikan sejagat(not jz for myself), i hope Tuhan will help me in my journey.