i dont think i need to defend myself

Ppl can convince other ppl by their words or deeds in front of d ppl they want to convinced with, but in d end, it is only d intention from ur heart/良知 tat can convince God.

i dont think i need to defend myself

Ppl can convince other ppl by their words or deeds in front of d ppl they want to convinced with, but in d end, it is only d intention from ur heart/良知 tat can convince God.

A solo self-searching

If my mood is good in this week, w/o so many obstacles happening in these few weeks, I would go BAMSA (Msian society) BBQ party , WITHOUT a second tot. It is organized by d new committee, n of coz, I have lots of fun with my friends around which d BAMSA nite really pulls all our hearts together.

Bt instead, I admit if I go BBQ, I really don’t want ppl worry about my stiffness of face to joke, smile, laugh n have fun together. So, I go Solo Jungle tracking in Breacon Beacon National Park In South Wales, in search of waterfall. N conquer a new place.

A 2nd time in UK, after leaving notts uni alone n meet 2 strangers n go notts city directly. It is nvr fun to talk while jungle track, n I m wearing a formal black leather shoes, after my sport shoes gone missing. After I go toilet when reaching destination, I saw no1 anymore. I walk straight n choose a random road(since no map), n halfway, saw ppl with map returning since d road leads deadend, n follow them then.

Out of 5 waterfalls, only manage to c 2. Bcaz d roads r blocked, bcaz there is casualty. I saw a helicopter land right in front my eyes, n I saw from far, n my reflex suddenly tell me to jump on d floor, which my reflex is very good where later all dust flew towards me. I manage to take pics with a close up helicopter landing, when driver is not around.

V attempt which roads r not blocked to d 3rd onwards, bt all is blocked. Of coz d paramedics r wearing black leather shoes s well, so I shouldn’t complain, bt I slip n fall many time. Luckily not near d cliff. D road is too rocky. D road is so narrow esp on d cliff, luckily I don’t fall. Of coz, no robe, since it is a National Park, n impossible for ppl to rope up everywhere.

And it is Godsend msg tat when d paramedics approaches d victim, a kind stranger, shouted d opposite cliff paramedics d direction, bt later, a person stops him, d victim is dead. Oh my gosh, I m grateful of 2 things:
- I am grateful I m alive n life is short
- I m grateful I leave d National Park safely. Everywhere is dangerous, of coz a National Park have higher probability of danger causing…LOL

Of coz, every1 go to National Park with family to spend over weekend, alto d water is freezing cold n ppl is prohibited bcaz strong current, no1 wish for casuality

One day jungle tracking is nvr fun w/o camping n of coz chitty chatty friends. I do some self-reflection when I get in touch with Nature. Of coz, I nvr saw any dream girl/ puteri of Wales in areas of waterfall, LOL….like in the Puteri Gunung Ledang like tat…

Really miss d fun of BBQ, n chitty chatty Malaysian friends. Bt glad they have good times with good weather s well. Sry for disappoint many who make sure every1 come for BAMSA. Congrats on d new committee. Sry tat d Prince(LOL) who cannot make it. But glad tat I don’t propogate my bad qi/negative qi to d friends I care most.

If I don’t attend some gathering, it is either I m physically unwell or emotionally unwell. Hope I m healing fast. Glad tat every1 has more share of d food, without me….LOL

sem 1 result released n analysis

Overall congrats to all Bathonians n Mancunians on almost similar result release date. My 3 Bathonians brothers n 3 sisters passed as expected, which luckily i pass s well.

I dont really ask their result but I know a couple of bathonians having result not as expected, from my 6th sense of prediction. I really hope tat if he/she needs help beyond academic, bcaz i really dont want my 3 brothers n sisters having other problems affecting their study, like wat i m having, which is not a pleasant journey. I glad tat I helped out a person but I want to help my other brothers n sisters too, not focusing my energy on a single person. Mayb i m younger than d rest, so i have a more naive mentality(haha)

I myself have set an academic standard too low for my 3 Bathonians brothers n 3 sisters tat i myself r in danger. I promised my 3 Bathonians brothers tat i m staying with them n I dont want I end up being sent back to USM or any IPTA, which i can go back every month from Penang, while they r paying for my rent.

I admit not being a academic person bcaz:
1. I m borned hyperactive in kidnergarden n I cannot sit still to study. U dont expect me to carry notes,

walking around studying, I have motion sickness bcaz I cant even read inside a car/bus, wateva.

2. I only really start studying in my life on Form 4 n really Form 5. After SPM, I didnt touched book for 7 months, at least others got read novel, internet thingy(i know i only have dial-up n tat time my KFC dont have wifi yet). And A-level, last min, unlike my constant studying I do in SPM.

I have flashback on things, which is accurate. I flashback (jz like Chuck, a series) tat when i take a travellator in airport b4 we fly, alto i nvr take a flight in my life, not even in baby. I cannot sleep well then it means something bad will happen 2molo, which is ALWAYS true(n i m facing tat kinda incident w/o a good sleep n make thing more worse)

I got a major flashback tat really stick to my mind:

"I will be successful in life, no doubt. But I may not be successful in my academic life. "

So wat is this? I dont wanna screw up my academic life. Then, who is helping my 3 brothers paying the rent? I want to graduate in Bath bcaz i wanna prove my flashback in d 2nd part, wrong.

My result is passed but a critical, dangerous, wind blow, i will drop.

Studying is not a habit to me like in number 2. So, hardworking is not my nature, unlike ppl who r used to being hardworking since small n become part of some1. I know my friends have been high-achiever since small, n I m a 3rd world country, unlike them being developed countries.

I am happy on Guarino's sms "nevermind, we will guide u". I really like d use of "we" alto it is him sending the sms. Thanks a lot. Appreciate it.

My 3 brothers n 3 sisters, with me being d little cute, adorable, lovable(vomit) petit brother, odd one out borned in 1990, being a plane of symmetry for d equal number of boys n girls, making it d odd number 7. Hope all of us will graduate in Bath Abbey Church in 2013.

how can i b a pharmacist if i m academically not successful?

my prediction of i m successful when i m very OLD OLD (mayb tat time my son successful, not me)....but my academic got so many barriers, cabaran, dugaan, halangan till I no longer study anymore.

mayb i end up extemporaneous dispensing milo suspension in a coffee shop n mayb this is a prediction of my future of being successful...

Note to self:

Note to self:

1. I cannot expect/force others to practise/accept that good deeds will have good Karma/return but wrongdoings will have bad Karma/punishment, sooner or later in life, which cannot be avoided. . 善有善报,恶有恶报,不是不报,时机未到.

tat's y ppl keep complaining y rich corrupted ppl still live healthy n energetic.....,but who can predict 2molo?

, but i know tat me myself have to practise my own principle that I held since small, regardless others practising or not.

2. I cannot expect/force others to believe/accept God, but i know tat me myself have to hold my own principle, to b fear to God/ judgement day after I die, regardless others believe in God or not.

3. I cannot expect/force others to practise honesty/truthfulness, to share good things around, but i know tat me myself have to practise it, regardless others practising or not.

4. Ppl can continue to mistreat me but me myself cannot change my principle bcaz of tat.

5. Dont use other ppl's wrongdoings to torture urself. U have tried best to correct some1, if tat person dont wanna listen, then u have done ur part. If he continue to continue his wrongdoing, u done ur best. He have to face consequence of his wrongdoing, not d one advising.

6. To achieve number 4, mayb when some1 slap me on my face, i shouldnt get angry, but smile back SINCERELY(tat's d point), wishing the person, may him be well n happy, n let him slap d other side, if he wish. At a certain point, he will be defeated by himself. Loving-kindness is the greatest weapon in any world war n as a revenge for some1 who mistreat us. V fight violent using loving-kindness.

messy room

人言落日是天涯，望极天涯不见她．已恨碧山想阻隔，碧山还被暮山隔



众里寻她千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在吾之心深处


Oh, don’t worry too much, I found my missing notes dy in my messy room..after a long time searching

my name's fate

洪 伟政 的內在想法

*有時很有主見，但有時又缺乏主見
*想法很容易被他人動搖，內心世界中會不時的搖擺不定
*想得比較久遠，危機意識比較高
*沒什麼耐性，容易中途放棄
*原則常常在變，要求他人比自己多

洪 伟政 的外在行為

*喜歡動腦，不喜歡動手動勞力
*很討厭失敗的感覺，所以在做事前會想得很多很久
*對自己很有自信，不會在意別人來懷疑自己
*只會關心比較關於自己的事，其它都笑笑的帶過
*當自己成功時會很愛現